Stuff

Lost

In a world of...

Role playing

Playing make believe 

Believe me

Who is that

To whom do I belong

Longing for a simpler time

Time gets away so fast

Fast times and fewer friends

Who are my friends

What do I mean to them

Am I valuable 

What is my value

Who am I without them

I keep getting lost

Buried in stuff

My stuff

Their stuff

Too much stuff

I need to change stuff

Prioritize stuff

Good stuff 

Creative stuff

Get rid of stuff

That no longer fits me

Embrace a new me 

AGAIN

Like a Ferris wheel

At the bottom

Rising to the top

The view gets clearer

I can see things clearer

I don’t want to come down

But I have to face it

It has to face me

I can do this 

I was born to do this

I am a survivor 

I am a winner

I just need to get rid of stuff

Dawny B ❤️

Love Languages

Love 

Languages 

My language

Your language 

No communication 

Miscommunication

Misunderstanding

Hurt

Shame

Baggage 

The need to be...

Heard

Seen

Right

Validated

We fight

We cry

We heal

Recycle

Restart

Restate

Reclaim

I hang my head in shame

I understand your language 

It doesn't sound like mines

But it feels the same

I hear and feel it now

My humble apology 

I love you Always

Learning to love you IN ALWAYS

Dawny B ❤️

Fatherly Love

Father's be kind to your daughters
You are the stewards of their hearts
The way you look at her
Receive her and
Handle her heart
Will be indelible
She will carry this with her
In her most intimate relationships
Be kind
Be mindful
She is yours to treasure
Nurture her
Protect her
Make her feel special
Help her feel secure
You are the steward of her heart
Don't break it...
You will need her someday
A broken heart
Can NOT heal a
Broken relationship.

SELF-LOVE

It’s time to put me first

What does that look like?

What does that mean, for a people pleaser?

It means saying NO to others without apology

It means saying YES to ME and MY goals

MY LIFE depends on it

I was made for greatness

I have to cultivate it

Nurture it

Recognize it

Only I can

So I DON’T feel bad about putting ME FIRST

NO

ONE

ELSE

WILL

Loving self is NOT hating others

It’s PRESERVATION

Beautiful

Beautiful
Inside & Out
Powerful
Full of light
Brilliant
Humble
&
Foine
You
are on my
Mind

Dawny B

Daydreaming...

Daydreaming...

You make me smile

Inspire me

Make me feel free

I find my creativity

Butterflies

Breeze

Fresh air

Not a care

Barefoot

Sandy feet

Cool water

Refreshing

I

Feel

Alive

Daydreaming

of

YOU

Dawny B

Love

Love...
Hurts
Confuses
Gives you butterflies
Makes you cry
Question
Doubt
Shout
Scream
Make you mean
What does it all mean
Then you deny
Tell little lies
Forgive
"Forget"
Like
Love
Repeat...

Who is that girl...

Who is that girl
Behind those eyes
Eyes that smile
That beckon you
What is her story
Who is that girl
Behind those eyes
Eyes that cry
Does she feel valued
Can she be replaced
Who is that girl
Behind those eyes  
Eyes that look lonely
Does she have a purpose
Is she lost and confused
Who is that girl
Behind those eyes
Eyes that search
Looking for comfort
and intimacy
Somewhere to feel free
Just to be
Reflective
Introspective
Not neglected
Who is that girl
Behind those eyes
Eyes that need
To search within
To find the answer
Because only she knows
Who that girl IS
Behind those eyes...

Sometimes...

Sometimes I cry
When I look at dancers
I wonder why
When I look at dancers
So graceful
Disciplined    
and smooth
I love to watch them move
But I get overwhelmed with tears
When I look at dancers
Is there a need in me
I've forgotten to feed
It's like a part of me wants to be freed
I often cry when I look at dancers
I wonder why
When I look at dancers
Maybe...
In my heart
I
Am
A
Dancer...

That new love...

I miss that new love
The kind that gives you butterflies
Days with only blue skies
No clouds
No rain
No pain
Just excitement
Anticipation
I know...
Romance doesn't last forever
Nor should it
Life happens
Bills need to be paid
Work has to be done
But sometimes
You want to feel butterflies
Just 'cause it's Tuesday
Spontaneity goes a long way
Doesn't have to be everyday
Make me feel alive
Just 'cause it's Tuesday

Summer Daze

Don't have to travel far
The ocean is my backyard  
Splashing waves
Hidden caves
Summer daze
Salty air              
Breeze in my hair
Comfort            
Peace              
Tranquilty
Greet me        
The smell of the sea
Brings childhood memories
back to me  
I feel free
as I dip my toes into the sea  
It humbles me
as I marvel at this beautiful scenery
Heavenly father has created for me
Blessed to be in this place
I call
Home

Authenticity

Authenticity
Means the world to me
Transparency
Can be scary
But necessary
I can not give my all
When you put up a wall
Remember walls
Block
Blessings and lessons
I choose to
Deal
Feel
Heal
Authentically
So if this scares you
Please
Don't
Step to me!

Prisoner of my thoughts

Having one of those days
When I'm all in my head
Doubting my choices
and words that I've said        
No one really cares
No one understands
I'm a prisoner of my own making
My own worst friend
Oh how I wish
it could all just fade away      
Wish I could go back to yesterday
Make a few changes
Loosen up a bit
Stop being so damn serious  
and acting so stiff
Life is for living  
Enjoy it while you can
Take the time to have fun              
forget about your plans
Throw caution to the wind
Indulge in decadence
Like it's not a sin
Live Love Laugh
Tomorrow may never come ...

Shine Shawny Shine

When I think of courage
I think of you
When I think of perseverance
You come to mind too
Always in your shadow
As I've watched you shine
So loving and sweet
Nurturing and kind    
Your journey has been long
With trials along the way  
Somedays you feel like giving up
Somedays you plug away
Always an example
Of strength through difficult times
Never doubt your value
Your example makes you shine

Because I am...

Because I am    
I am beautiful
Brown skin and all
Because I am
I don't have to be tall
Because I am
These freckles look good on me
Because I am
I will celebrate what I see
Because I am
Redefining what beauty is
Because I am                                  
Comfortable and loving my own skin
Because I am                          
Finally happy being me
Because I am
What my Heavenly Father made me

Thank You Mom

Thank you Mom
For the example you've shown
You will always be
My Queen on a throne
Through all your struggles
and financial strife  
I know what to expect as a mother
and what to accept as wife  
Through times of doubt
on my darker days
I feel your spirit with me always
A glimpse of green on a sunny spring day
Makes me smile
Then it flies away
A sweet reminder
Of your beautiful face
and the comfort I get on my darker days.

Outside

I am outside
Away from the news
and politics of the day
I am outside
Where it's free for me to play
And conjure up
words to describe
The feeling of peace    
Just from being here outside
Birds chirpin'
Wind is blowin' through the trees
It's so refreshin'
the feel of spring breeze  
People are active
As they walk or run
pass my way
I am outside
On a beautiful spring day

Expert Advice

So you're an expert on my life
Do you know what makes me sick
Do you know what makes me tick
There are experts all around
In my life
I have found
Although none of them seem to agree
All with their own idea of what's best for me
As if I am wondering around
Without a clue to be found
They serve a purpose though
They help me grow
They help me look inside
I look within and find my guide
But this is not unique to me
We all have this gift you see
So perhaps we can begin
To search always within
Where the keys to our life are found
No longer confusion bound

Message to self

Life
Lessons
Learned
In time
My time
My experience
My failure
My success
Truth is
I
Must
Be
Ready
To receive
To achieve
To reach my potential
Not someone's expectation for me
I
Have
The power
To seek
To have peace
To find within me
The key
To
Success
I
Know
What I must do
I
Am in control
I
Am
Happy
and
at Peace
Today is a good day.

Daydreamin'

Alone in bed
Longing for you
My hands trace my nakedness...
Wishing they were yours
Exploring every bend and curve
Come to me my love
Embrace me
Taste me
I need you
Like morning coffee