Saturday, 11 August 2012

Please don't

Please don't patronize me with your "are you okay"
My body was built for disappointment and pain
Broad shoulders and big hands too
I can handle the pain I go through
I wasn't born yesterday
I don't need you to explain
That everyone does not have my best interest at heart
I figured it out
I'm pretty smart
So save your patronizing "are you okay"
It's the last thing I need to hear today!

Tuesday, 7 August 2012

Reason or Season


I miss the way it used to be
We could speak to each other freely
No holding back
Souls would connect
We both had each others back
But something has shifted
I'm sad to say
We just don't connect that much these days
I miss you
You miss me
We both miss the way it used to be
Feeling compelled to give you a call
when I do, there is a wall
Blockage
Barriers
Fences
Trees
The emptiness and sadness brings me to my knees
Crying and asking myself why
Why did this friendship have to die
Searching and looking for a reason
I guess it was meant
for just a season...



Monday, 16 July 2012

Fat girl

Yeah
I saw you whisper
She's fat
No shit
Yup
I'm fat
And on the beach
Wearing a bathing suit
Not cut off's and a Tshirt
A bathing suit
Pluz size
Big thighs
Close your eyes
I'm tired of hiding
This IS me
Every curve and dimple
Get use to it
It's hot
I plan on rocking this look
All effin summer
Peace out


Sunday, 15 July 2012

For My Love


Hey baby...
I was just thinking about the first time I saw you...
You had that Al. B Sure, Christopher Williams look...
Tall and bright
My "type"
Moustache and dimples
Oh and that smile....
Wow....
Sexy, cute and crooked...
Yup crooked....
But it looks good.... on you
I love seeing you smile...
It makes me smile too...
and remember what falling in love feels like....
Niiiiiice
I'm smiling now as I write this...
I reminisce.....
Of our first trip....
Holding hands, giggles and fun
All under the Florida sun...
Shopping and dinning and making love...
We had so much fun
I remember the way you used to look at me...
It made me so happy....
I saw that look today
Still in Love
YAY!!!

Tuesday, 3 July 2012

Passion II

Passion
looks me straight in the face
calls out my name
over and over again
gives me permission to feel
everything that is real
Passion
kisses me on the neck
nibbles on my ears
tells me what I want to hear
grabs my hands and explores my desires
traces my deepest emotions
Passion
lets me know I am alive
gives me goosebumps at the slightest touch
I can't get enough
Passion
thanks for visiting me
I love your company
I wait for you again
you always return to me
because I AM PASSION

Tuesday, 5 June 2012

Love struck

Heart racing
Lip biting
Ride into ecstasy
Toe curling
Hair pulling
Mmmmmmm baby give it to me
So much passion with every touch
The thought of you makes me blush
And gives me a rush
Like a school girl with a crush
Corny I know
What can I say
I smile when I think of the day
I saw you for the first time
Wow still blows my mind
I was in a funk
Love sick and heart broken
Feelin depressed and no words were spoken
Than from the corner of my eyes
I spotted what looked like a prize
Tall light and handsome
With a mustache too
Tryna be cool by not staring at you
But I felt a sigh of relief
Thinkin life is a funny thing
Just when I thought.
I'd never love again
There you were, perhaps we can be friends
A few months go by
And I think about you
Wondering are you thinkin about me too
Than the call comes
Again I sigh with relief
We set a date
I can't wait to meet and greet
To chat and chew
To find out what's up with you
The day has arrived
And I'm nervous as can be
Will there be any awkward moments between you and me
Eighteen years later
And still in love with you
Can't imagine my life without you
Through thick and thin
Ups and downs
Love and loss
And parenting our child
There is nothin I would change
It unfolded as it should
Some things bad and some things good
You are a blessing I can't say it enough
Everything you do
And everyone you touch
Is better for having met you
There's no doubt about our love for you
I can look at you now and still feel pride
That man is mine and he's so fine
Beautiful, from the inside out
Still loves me even when I pout
and act like a brat
You still have my back
What have I done to deserve such luck
Amazed by this man
He's got me love struck

Monday, 4 June 2012

Today's Affirmation

I may not be
your image of beauty
the perfect size whateva
I may not be
the prettiest girl
with skin that's high yella
I struggled with this
for many years
blinded by my own beauty
with tears
I am BEAUTIFUL
I am BIG
I LOVE every freckle and blemish
I really do
I can't be a better me
If I don't love what I see
I deserve HAPPINESS
and it starts with me
Working from the inside out...