Comfort...

Voices
Noise
Confusion
Illusion
Chaos
I need to escape
Silence
Comforts
Gives
Order
To my thoughts
Peace
To my broken spirit
Solitude
Is NOT
Loneliness
It is
Comfort

Feels like...

Feels like springtime
You're on my mind
In the middle of the day
I smile
and reminisce
Think of your kiss
Joyful bliss
Distractions dismissed
I feel Happy
can't stop smiling
The sun is shining
and I am in love
feels like the first time...

Freedom

I was a prisoner of my own making
I believed the things I heard about me
I could see how they began to manifest in my life
Cycles of fear, depression and guilt
JUDGEMENT
Everything I say, do, eat and wear is as a result of MY choices
Choices based on the things I believed about me
The old tapes play over and over
Until I pulled them out
Unwound them
Trashed them
And created a New reality
A new Vision for me
A healthy start
Mind
Body and
Soul
I am aware of the power I hold
I determine who I am
I am a HEALTHY woman
I am celebrating the new me
I feel FREE
and
NOTHING
Tastes as good as
FREEDOM

Frienemies?!?!

What's the magic number

How many times do you open your heart before it breaks again

How long before your painted on smile starts to fade away

My spirit is at war when it should be at peace

The sunshine has turned into a Tropical Beast

Darkness and rain

Envy and pain

Things will never ever be the same

We must go back to the beginning

It feels like NO ONE is winning

How has this all come to be

We are NOT supposed to be enemies

Moments in time

Sometimes

You realize

There are moments in time

When you have to stop

Slow down

Savor

I had that moment today

I watched you sleep so peacefully 

That spot in the bed next to you

It was calling me

So I indulged and climbed back in

Gave you a kiss

Touched your smooth skin

Breathed you in

Kissed your face

Held you close

And smiled

I AM blessed

and IN

LOVE

Tranquility

I lay back and relax

Floating on turquoise waters

Taking in the salty air

The sky is so blue and clear

Trials of the day just pass me by

No need to worry

No need to sigh

The hardest part is over, wow

I can relax now

Almost forgotten how

But that's okay

It comes back to me

Enjoying the breeze

The smell of the sea

I'm in paradise

I feel so free....

Claim it!

I used to cringe at cat calls
They made me feel dirty
I was a girl in a woman's body
No name, just thighs and breast
I hated that
Looks of lust from men old enough to be my dad
How do I get over that
My body is that of a woman
I can't stand it
Why is this happening to me
I'm not ready yet
How can I bury it
Comfort in the bottom of a bag of chips
And everything good that passes through my lips
I'll build up a layer of protection
Layer upon layer
Year after year
Maybe I'll disappear
This is easy
Nobody sees me
I'm invisible
It worked
RIGHT?

I have managed to bury myself
in layers of flesh
I have created a mess
Ready for a change
No longer afraid of being a woman
And ALL it entails
I am focused
I have a vision
The body that I have managed to bury
Is ready to be exhumed
No more hiding
No more shame
It's mine and I'm staking my claim
I saw it yesterday and it still bears my name
It's not too late
I can get it back
Here's my plan of attack
Be aware of what I'm eating
and what's eating me
I'm an emotional eater
if you know what I mean
Replace lounging with activity
Focus on my dreams
Stay off the sidelines and participate
Feeling good and looking great
Motivated by the body I buried yesterday
I saw it and it still bears my name
I am ready to do the work this all entails
No giving up
No time to fail
I owe it to me
And this I CAN ACHIEVE!