Who is that girl...

Who is that girl
Behind those eyes
Eyes that smile
That beckon you
What is her story
Who is that girl
Behind those eyes
Eyes that cry
Does she feel valued
Can she be replaced
Who is that girl
Behind those eyes  
Eyes that look lonely
Does she have a purpose
Is she lost and confused
Who is that girl
Behind those eyes
Eyes that search
Looking for comfort
and intimacy
Somewhere to feel free
Just to be
Reflective
Introspective
Not neglected
Who is that girl
Behind those eyes
Eyes that need
To search within
To find the answer
Because only she knows
Who that girl IS
Behind those eyes...

Sometimes...

Sometimes I cry
When I look at dancers
I wonder why
When I look at dancers
So graceful
Disciplined    
and smooth
I love to watch them move
But I get overwhelmed with tears
When I look at dancers
Is there a need in me
I've forgotten to feed
It's like a part of me wants to be freed
I often cry when I look at dancers
I wonder why
When I look at dancers
Maybe...
In my heart
I
Am
A
Dancer...

That new love...

I miss that new love
The kind that gives you butterflies
Days with only blue skies
No clouds
No rain
No pain
Just excitement
Anticipation
I know...
Romance doesn't last forever
Nor should it
Life happens
Bills need to be paid
Work has to be done
But sometimes
You want to feel butterflies
Just 'cause it's Tuesday
Spontaneity goes a long way
Doesn't have to be everyday
Make me feel alive
Just 'cause it's Tuesday

Summer Daze

Don't have to travel far
The ocean is my backyard  
Splashing waves
Hidden caves
Summer daze
Salty air              
Breeze in my hair
Comfort            
Peace              
Tranquilty
Greet me        
The smell of the sea
Brings childhood memories
back to me  
I feel free
as I dip my toes into the sea  
It humbles me
as I marvel at this beautiful scenery
Heavenly father has created for me
Blessed to be in this place
I call
Home

Authenticity

Authenticity
Means the world to me
Transparency
Can be scary
But necessary
I can not give my all
When you put up a wall
Remember walls
Block
Blessings and lessons
I choose to
Deal
Feel
Heal
Authentically
So if this scares you
Please
Don't
Step to me!

Prisoner of my thoughts

Having one of those days
When I'm all in my head
Doubting my choices
and words that I've said        
No one really cares
No one understands
I'm a prisoner of my own making
My own worst friend
Oh how I wish
it could all just fade away      
Wish I could go back to yesterday
Make a few changes
Loosen up a bit
Stop being so damn serious  
and acting so stiff
Life is for living  
Enjoy it while you can
Take the time to have fun              
forget about your plans
Throw caution to the wind
Indulge in decadence
Like it's not a sin
Live Love Laugh
Tomorrow may never come ...

Shine Shawny Shine

When I think of courage
I think of you
When I think of perseverance
You come to mind too
Always in your shadow
As I've watched you shine
So loving and sweet
Nurturing and kind    
Your journey has been long
With trials along the way  
Somedays you feel like giving up
Somedays you plug away
Always an example
Of strength through difficult times
Never doubt your value
Your example makes you shine

Because I am...

Because I am    
I am beautiful
Brown skin and all
Because I am
I don't have to be tall
Because I am
These freckles look good on me
Because I am
I will celebrate what I see
Because I am
Redefining what beauty is
Because I am                                  
Comfortable and loving my own skin
Because I am                          
Finally happy being me
Because I am
What my Heavenly Father made me

Thank You Mom

Thank you Mom
For the example you've shown
You will always be
My Queen on a throne
Through all your struggles
and financial strife  
I know what to expect as a mother
and what to accept as wife  
Through times of doubt
on my darker days
I feel your spirit with me always
A glimpse of green on a sunny spring day
Makes me smile
Then it flies away
A sweet reminder
Of your beautiful face
and the comfort I get on my darker days.

Outside

I am outside
Away from the news
and politics of the day
I am outside
Where it's free for me to play
And conjure up
words to describe
The feeling of peace    
Just from being here outside
Birds chirpin'
Wind is blowin' through the trees
It's so refreshin'
the feel of spring breeze  
People are active
As they walk or run
pass my way
I am outside
On a beautiful spring day

Expert Advice

So you're an expert on my life
Do you know what makes me sick
Do you know what makes me tick
There are experts all around
In my life
I have found
Although none of them seem to agree
All with their own idea of what's best for me
As if I am wondering around
Without a clue to be found
They serve a purpose though
They help me grow
They help me look inside
I look within and find my guide
But this is not unique to me
We all have this gift you see
So perhaps we can begin
To search always within
Where the keys to our life are found
No longer confusion bound

Message to self

Life
Lessons
Learned
In time
My time
My experience
My failure
My success
Truth is
I
Must
Be
Ready
To receive
To achieve
To reach my potential
Not someone's expectation for me
I
Have
The power
To seek
To have peace
To find within me
The key
To
Success
I
Know
What I must do
I
Am in control
I
Am
Happy
and
at Peace
Today is a good day.

Daydreamin'

Alone in bed
Longing for you
My hands trace my nakedness...
Wishing they were yours
Exploring every bend and curve
Come to me my love
Embrace me
Taste me
I need you
Like morning coffee

BFF

I trust you
With my life
On dark days
You make things bright  
You comfort me                                
with just a look          
A true confidant
In my book
I want you to know
I'm here for you
To hold you hand
and guide you through                  
Your darkest hour      
You can count on me
To lighten your burdens
and set you free

Sister to Sister

It is fair for me to assume
because you're a size two
You have no health issues
What do you see
When looking at me
Do you assume that I am jolly
Is it okay for me to surmise
Because you're the right size
Your struggles are not valid or real
When you look at me
With my rolls of fat
How does it make you feel
Is it utter disgust
Do you assume that I must
Just eat and eat all day
You might be surprised
That I realize it's not healthy to be this way
My struggle is clear
I've dealt with it for years
Yet I can positively say
I'm loving the skin
That I'm currently in
because I am well on my way
To getting healthy and lean
and I don't want to be mean
To my sisters who don't fight the same fight
My wish for you
Is that you are healthy too
and we can be in the same room
Without judging so fast
or walking right pass
without a kind word to say
Both our battles are real
and there's no need to feel
That you're better or worse in some way
Let us be kind
And bear in mind
That there's more than what you see
Whether it's putting on weight
or struggling with self hate
We ALL just want to be happy.

ART

You've always been there for me
You've comforted when others couldn't see
The pain and hurt I've experienced in life
You've helped me to be a better mother and wife
Getting in touch with my inner truth
Confronting the baggage of my youth
Seeking comfort in times of stress
Allows me to create my very best
Never feeling helpless and alone  
You will always have a place in my home
Through music, painting and poetry
I can let go of the past and finally feel free

My Blessing

In this world filled with crazy
I find refuge with you
In this place of unfulfilled dreams
You've made mines come true
Through the years, tears
and a few grey hairs
I can honestly say
You mean more to me each and everyday
So don't ever doubt your worth to me
Because of you I feel valued and free
My only hope is that I too
Can make all your dreams and wishes come true

Legacy

I still get angry when I think about
How you put value on our land
and kicked us out
You preyed on our ignorance
You should be ashamed
Yet you harbor no guilt
It's just a big game
The world just bows down and lets you do
Whatever it is that suits only you
And you have the nerve to look down at us
Like we have no right to feel disgust
You made the rules
Took our jewels
Leaving us empty handed like fools
But that's alright
We will be okay                                
The good book says
The meek shall inherit the earth one day

The Beauty of Spring

The sun feels good on my face      
Wouldn't want to be any other place
The sky is blue and clear            
I hear the hum of kites in the air
The smell of freesias
and fresh cut grass
Pastel colors as I drive pass
Concrete dwellings near and far
Mimic the colors of spring flowers    
Ladies and gents dressed in their Sunday best
I'm enjoying this day of rest          
The blessings of spring
Make me want to sing
But I can't hold a tune
So I'll just write            
and take it all in
To ignore this beauty would be a sin

Destination Home

The day has been long          
Night has come
I'm happy as can be
My man is back home
Where he belongs
Snoring right next to me

Home

Sitting in the kitchen with my sistas
We're in the heart of the home
The place we feel we belong
But not for the reasons you think
Looking at Shawny in front of the sink
We see our mommy
It makes us happy
As we gather in the kitchen where she once stood
All together in our old hood
This place is where we became women
Where we all started families
Where her spirit rests peacefully
As she watches her babies
Who have become women, wives and mothers
This makes her happy
And so I cry happy tears
As I see our babies go up and down the stairs
Of the place we call home
A place we all belong.

Bermudaful Day

Today was a beautiful spring day
We went outside to play
We had a great time                    
No one was online
The fresh air was so divine
Running in the sun
and having big fun                            
Taking in the beautiful sights
Bermuda really is paradise

Shannon

Tears run down my face today
as I think about my baby
The first time she looked up at me
I saw my eyes looking back at me
That toothless smile and chubby face
That warm little bundle all in my space
As if my heart was placed right next to me
Never knew how much she would mean to me
Until they placed her on my chest
This sweet little angel with whom I've been blessed
She is growing so quickly
The years are passing briskly
But she will always be my baby  
Even though she is becoming a young lady.

Somedays...

Somedays
I see her face
Feel her presence
Somedays
It feels as if she is just away
Only for one more day
Somedays
I hear her voice
It makes me weep
I miss listening to her heartbeat
Somedays
I miss the touch of her hands
Those healing hands
Hands that made our house a home
Somedays
I realize she is gone for good
My heart still breaks from our separation
Somedays
She visits me and reminds me
I am never alone
Everyday
I am thankful I was blessed to be her child
I miss you Mommy

Breakfast

Ahh... the aroma of roasted beans
The smokiness of swine
Sizzling sounds of cheesy eggs
Yum
It's breakfast time

Comfort

I reach for you
But you're not there
Traveling all the time
Sometimes it's hard
Sometimes it's easy
You're always on my mind
We have been blessed
With a beautiful child
I love to watch her sleep
and when she opens her big brown eyes
I see YOU looking back at me...

Prescription to paradise

Navigating through winding roads
Windows down
Spring breeze greets me
Makes breathing easy
My chest has been heavy
Fresh air is like medicine
On the road to recovery
It's a beautiful journey
Living in paradise is a blessing

Me

Don't be fooled by smiling eyes
You have no idea the pain they hide
A culture of being strong is celebrated
Vulnerability is not tolerated
Perceived as weak, shy and meek
Finding the words inside to speak
and voice my truth
Takes courage and pride
But there is so much conflict going on inside
Why can't I just BE
Happy with ME
and ALL that entails
Show up as I am
A sister and friend
and trust that's okay
So here I am
One more day
Doing my best to make being ME okay

Comfort...

Voices
Noise
Confusion
Illusion
Chaos
I need to escape
Silence
Comforts
Gives
Order
To my thoughts
Peace
To my broken spirit
Solitude
Is NOT
Loneliness
It is
Comfort